Rant: Family shit, Parenting, Negative Feelings, Managing One’s Focus, Choosing Patience

What’s the difference between possessing something and being responsible for it? Especially in the context of a parent-child relationship. Or rather, how do I explain the difference between the two to parents who’re being such arses that it’s preventing them from being able to reason even?

If I see shit adults (more shit than good, at least) project their insecurities on their children and prevent them from making happy memories while building a lovingly merciful bond w/ their cousins due to their (i.e. adult’s) own unresolved shit (That’s what it really is), then what do I do?

’Cause this is wrong, people, this is sarra-sar (“completely/ undeniably”) wrong!! What harm did the kids ever do to anyone to be caught up in this shit-storm of adult drama and family politics, huh?! We oughtta ship these shits (i.e. ingrates) to Yemen or some place similar for them to get their egos in check.

Or even better.

May Allah give ’em all that they think they need. All the money, all the whatever else… nope! ’Cause it basically starts and finishes at money) and more and then, I simply want to sit back and witness how they are able to acquire the peace they so severely lack at the moment. The tranquility and contentment, which are the REAL wealth, you know?

’Cause one can have all the money in the world and it won’t mean jack if they don’t have peace of mind, body and soul, but one can have the latter and life will not need to be different in any way for them to be okay! That’s where it ends people. “Ek Nuqte which gal mukdi ae” Best to work towards getting to that point where they (changes in stimuli) stop messing us up.

And then they say I’m too naïve to understand what’s really happening. I’m not even kidding, peeps. I was sat down for a few hours to listen to a recount of all the abuse that has accrued over the past… what? 4 years now (since papa rejected that proposal on my behalf and didn’t even bother to clarify that it was on MY BEHALF).

Let’s veer off into that space, yea? Just for fun’s sake. Or maybe someday else. Right now, I want to conclude this rant by saying that although weird stuff’s up and happening around me. I’m okay, my loved ones are okay and everything’s going to okay. I learnt a while ago to not expect any more from life in this world than what comes, so I’m not too surprised.

Just feels weird to be told I don’t know anything just because I choose to try and not harbor negative feelings towards others and be kind to ’em (Yep, to the point of being disrespected at times as well, but I don’t mind. Let ’em enjoy that fleeting sense of importance they feel when they choose to be ungrateful to God by treating another creation trying to reconcile things as best she can as they sometimes (or mostly, do)).

Let them do them. I’d rather wait for God to do what He does when feeble humans start to think they’re Gods over others (Be it their own kids even) and act according to that false perception of themselves and those around them. Hmm Now, comin’ back to reality. I so hope I pass that Philosophy unit. All others are going splendidly. It’s just that one that’s bugging me a li’l, but let’s see.

I’ll be okay regardless.