I understand and accept that I may need to use Risperidone as a crutch to complete my University studies w/ out burning out in the coming years.. …

What else is there to do anyways? I love my papa, and I love my Abdullah. And not just because they deserve nothing less than to be loved by the women in their lives, but because I love. I love, 'cause... why not? Why would I not most love the 2 men in my life who are…

They called my beloved crazy. Who really am I to expect anything different? Especially when I'm trying to follow in the footsteps of my beloved. W/ that said, I am writing this to remind myself of my God-given right to autonomy. When my God's given me that right, Who really…

I know this stuff isn’t as simple as I have a tendency to make it sound, but I do sometimes wonder: Could the antipsychotic I was put on in 2018 have something to do w/ the crippling months long depression followed by more months of emotional numbness and apathy I…

My loves, If you saw in the eyes of most persons what I see upon catching them eyeing my veiled/ unveiled self, you'd understand I choose to cover up as I do to protect myself. I can go on waiting for all people of the world to learn to manage…

Thoughts? I love her content merely for the sake of the sense of self-empowerment it helps me create in myself. I don't agree w/ everything that's said, but I sure don't disagree w/ all of it either. …

I do that by going around telling friends that I've become a highly active person and that I intermittently move for 2-3 hours every single day on average. And although that's not entirely false. It's not entirely true either. Yes, I am mindful of moving around a lot in a…

Thank you for allowing me to experience immense joy at the prospect of there still being a possibility of me marrying him. I am grateful to you for that, and I am grateful to you for all things else. I am grateful to you for allowing me my wants, and…

I am feeling reckless, and I hope it's got something to do w/ the fact that I'm tired, and nothing to do w/ the fact that I recently found out I was lied to and manipulated to the point of... Well, it worked to my advantage actually. So no complaints. …